feelings that come back are feelings that never fade.
ah ok this feeling just freaking sucks. i have no idea why i’m feeling this way. i had considered trying to tell you everything, when i mean everything, it means telling you how i feel towards you, and all those stupid reasons why i want to talk to you so badly, but now i feel like, even if i tell you, you won’t even care. yeah, this is what i think, not what you think, but sometimes through a person’s actions, it’s really obvious. you can’t force yourself to like someone, but at the same time, you can’t force someone to like you too. so if you like her, i can’t care, at all. yknow what i find it funny, is that everyone asks me the same question, “how’s things between you and him?” and all I replied was “nothing.” really, we don’t even talk anymore, you don’t even bother saying “hi” to me or even some random texts at all. hahah, good morning and good night texts, yeah how pathetically that now i don’t even receive it anymore, i don’t expect anymore, i don’t expect you to send me those texts, trying to wake me up by spamming me, no, i just wish for only one simple thing, which is hoping that one day everything would go back to how it used to be like in the past. just for a day, i’ll be happy that just for a day, we get to talk to each other about our lives and how are things going between you and me.
Ah whatever it is, I hope that you’ll be happy. And next time I would look back and laugh at these silly things I used to cry at. Hahaha silly me, thinking that perhaps I stand somewhere in your heart, used to be a priority, now, not even an option. hey mr D, guess you’re happy now. this jealousy feeling would soon go away, when all the feelings fade and all the shit stop. it will all soon be over. yeah soon. i still smile, when i read our past conversations, how you used to tease me, how we used to talk to really really late at night, everything.
feelings that come back are feelings that never fade. oh well. stupid feelings.
